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I’m surprised I woke up this morning in a good mood. Last night I was very depressed. I went to class expecting to receive my yellow belt and came home disappointed yet again. Sifu told us all last Tuesday that “tomorrow” would be the promotions. I mentioned that I couldn’t make it to classes on Wednesday so he said I’d receive my belt on Thursday. *smacks head* I’ve considered that maybe he is teaching us all a lesson in um… patience… in the true confusing style of Chinese kung fu. Where the master keeps his reasons and motivations secret. However, I have my reasons for thinking that this is not the case. I can’t help but feel disappointed. And a little let down. And I’m sure that the others who tested feel just as confused as I do. But I have to keep reminding myself that the belt really isn’t anything. All it is a symbol. A representation of my rank in this system. And rank shouldn’t matter. Still, I didn’t know how to feel last night. I came home and told my dad about what happened… and almost cried. Well, ok I did cry. Which was really stupid. I should have faith in my Sifu… especially Dacascos Sifu… I should trust him more.

I trained last night with my swords to help release some of the pent up frustration. I’m glad that I did. I feel strangely as if I finally… um bonded with my sword. Not the wushu blade… the real one. What a strange experience: to love a blade. :)

I also had the most incredible sensations last night before I fell asleep. . I brought myself down into a kind of meditation, like I usually do when my mind is too busy for sleeping. I felt what I’ve come to describe as my “aura expanding”… I feel very big and slightly above myself. This was normal. I’ve felt this a hundred times. But then, I vaguely remember a new sensation… It must have happened after I began to doze, otherwise I’d have woken myself up because of its strangeness. I felt as if I were suddenly conscious in two separate places at the same time. As if I were having two sets of dreams at once, both unrelated to each other. I was suddenly two separate whole people sleeping side by side. I remember being in my own place, and feeling that I was also laying just to my right, and slightly above… two sets of thoughts, overlapping, but not mixing. I vaguely thought while laying in bed that this was strange… but the strangeness never ‘clicked’ consciously enough to pull me out of it. It wasn’t an uncomfortable experience. I believe I fell asleep completely during the experience. It felt ‘normal’ and ‘familiar’. but upon waking, and remembering it, I can’t help but wonder what it might have been.

A few days ago, I believe I left my body. I remember sitting up, as if sitting up in a shallow bathtub… my legs still submerged in my own legs. The feeling of out of body travel is a familiar one, although I’ve only experienced it a few times that I can remember. I flew up towards my ceiling and began to pass through it. After that, I have no memory. Often times I only remember clips of my travels. I’m glad that these experiences are finally returning. I went through a long period of spiritual stagnation. I feel that period is finally coming to an end.

I bet some of you are laughing like mad skeptics. And another some of you is half interested… and yet another some of you might even be laughing at how inexperienced I am… “she can’t even remember her travels. puh! silly newbie.” To each his own…

Comment Topic of the Day: Astral Projection and the Odd Experience I had last night. Anyone have any comments on this entry? logical explanations? similar experiences? Any ideas or theories on what this might have been?