I went for a walk this morning. I’ve decided that I like sunshine a lot. And I like walking, hiking, breathing here. Every time I come back, I realize how much I want to live here again. It is very much alive to me here, and although I’d like to share, I think I’ll spare you the romantic magical experiences I had this morning. In Oregon, I never felt things like I feel them here. This morning I felt myself slipping back into the sage I once thought I was. *sigh* The things you simply cannot do in Oregon…
I miss it. I took the ocean for granted when I lived here. The sun too. And the lava rocks (which still look/feel like the backside of some dragon to me).
I remember camping near Shipman Beach with Steve and Alastair, and knowing things that… simply don’t exist in the mainland. Is it a symptom of delusion? Or is this place simply younger, more dream-like, and more expressive? Places like London are haunted because of their long histories. But Hawaii is still very much alive, in ways that the larger continents themselves can’t even close their eyes and dream of.
alkemy | 20-Dec-02 at 10:09 am | Permalink
…and I actually wish you would have gone into more “magical” detail about where you went walking.
It’s interesting to me because you have such a different perspective then I do regarding being here in Hawaii. I lived on the Big Island (in Hilo) for 5 years and I really loved it there…much more so than Oahu and I can really relate to what you’ve written here…
up to a point.
You and I seem to connect to our enviroment in radically different ways. I don’t think you’re delusional at all in your sense of Essence regarding Hawaii. You seem to really be able to lock into and respond to the natural elements that Hawaii offers more than some people…maybe because you’re from here and it’s a part of you.
I can appreciate similar aspects of the same elements but because I’m not from here I find myself being unable to completely identify with the more descriptive elements of your post …whereas when I am out in nature in the Mainland, I have a much stronger sense of connection with my surroundings.
I’m not saying one is better than the other…only different. But I think I simply prefer the “aliveness” of the Mainland versus Hawaii simply because I’m from there…not because it’s “better”. The energy of the Mainland communicates with me more directly than I suspect it does with you. The seasons, the climate, the landscape, the sunrises and sunsets, the extreme temperatures and even how the sky and clouds look all have a quite profound effect on me on the Mainland; I feel quite stimulated by it’s older brand of vitality.
Ironically, the only time I feel really alive when I am over here is when I am literally IN the ocean and I think it has a lot to do with me not feeling tied to the land like you do.
::shrugs::
Ok, I’m starting to become slightly redundant here…hehe, sorry ’bout that. I could go on forever in this mode….
At any rate…I really enjoyed this post of yours. :)
starladear6 | 20-Dec-02 at 10:27 am | Permalink
Thank you for reading… and for enjoying. *wiggles* And actually, I’m not originally from Hawaii. I was born in Oregon, and moved here when I was 12 or 13 (parental divorce). You are right though. I think you and I both resond to the different elements in different ways. you’ve made your connection to the mainland’s “energy” very clear and it just makes me think about all kinds of nifty things like wavelengths and compatibility and such… like each of us resonates with one kind of life or another, and for me this place has the right frequency for me.
Small tidbit of my magical experience: When i was in high school and a bit younger, I felt like I was able to read the energies of the life and the land here in such detail that I could almost have conversations with the trees… all of it could have been a bit of the “child with imaginary friends” type of thing, but… Today some of that came back. I think I can see and feel the auras of things here. And when I try to see or feel them in the mainland, it simply does not exist for me.
If you want more detail, like how all of this started, I’ll share. But maybe not in livejournal… :)
isobal | 20-Dec-02 at 12:17 pm | Permalink
Hmmmm now you got me curious also Starla……. I also would like to know the details……
I am also from the Big Island so I do understand how you feel. But the diference is that I feel a strong connection to the mainland also…..
alkemy | 20-Dec-02 at 12:32 pm | Permalink
Aaaah…ok. For some reason, I thought you were originally from Hawaii. My mistake. :)
I’m curious now…since the frequency of Hawaii seems to agree with you so much, do you plan on eventually moving back here after you finish college?
Incidentally, I just came from seeing LOTR: The Two Towers and your commentary about communicating with trees struck me as amusing. When you see the movie you’ll know what I’m talking about, hehe.
But I believe you when you claim that you can connect that deeply to the energies of the life and land here. That’s really becoming one with your enviroment….being able to “commune” with nature like that on an almost spritual level. I envy (in a good way) that ability/sensitivity. I’m able to do that somewhat with the ocean, I believe. Or maybe I just think I can because I’m a Pisces, haha.
I think the urban equivalent to what you’re describing is being able to “read the streets” in a metropolitan area, which I’ve always been pretty good at. Maybe I’m off base with that comparison, though…
Always a pleasure exchanging with you, Starla. I’m glad to see that you’re enjoying your vacation.
Take Care. :)
starladear6 | 22-Dec-02 at 6:06 pm | Permalink
Sorry it took me so long to reply. I spent the last 2 days working on my website and didn’t even check my email.
Anyway, thanks so much for your thoughts. I love exchanging thoughts with you.
I’m off to see the Two Towers tomorrow. :) Maybe it will inspire even more things. :)
starladear6 | 22-Dec-02 at 6:08 pm | Permalink
I’ve got many um… stories about things I did at that time in my life… the things I believed in, etc. Most of it I can now explain away as “something I needed back then, but have since outgrown”… however, having some of it “come back” is kinda neat.
I’ll share more stories and more details sometime… when I’m braver. :)
isobal | 22-Dec-02 at 11:49 pm | Permalink
Hello …….
Thank you for sharing that……..
I am sure when you share……. it will be worth the wait!
starladear6 | 23-Dec-02 at 12:37 pm | Permalink
Well, I’m always on various messaging services, and I’ve also got email. I’m just a little reluctant to share my more vulnerable bits on livejournal. I’m flattered that you are interested in hearing about it… it makes me feel special. :)
The IM and email door is always open. :)