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My brain is fuzzy. Le Pacte des Loupe is… intense. That’s all I can say… I am still in this numbing state of mental and emotional shock. If you are someone who enjoys happy endings or if you are someone who prefers not to have your deepest fears and secrets revealed and thrown upon the big screen (or computer screen, or tv screen… whichever floats your boat…) do not see this movie It violates every unspoken tradition of “good” film-making. So much that perhaps it should be hated, or banned… it probably would be banned if it were published in a different era. 17th century France for example… Unless of course it was commissioned by the Pope himself for the purpose of frightening the populace into obeying a God he created. The movie was great. Frightening, deep, and horrible. Beautiful in the way that a stab wound or a fatal bite is beautiful.

In Other News: I’m completely miserable without Tomo. It’s quite ironic… I made this un-spoken vow that I would not fall for anyone… not fall seriously. I decided early on that I would learn to have “a little fun”… (and three days after I arrived… I did. but shhh.) Oops. A big oops. Too late. Past the point of no return. I can’t explain… I wish I could. It frustrates me… how things emotional never seem to happen the way you plan. I’m more than a little scared… Because I’ve felt this way before… and I’ve always had to say goodbye. And this time, I know that I will have to say goodbye… But I don’t want to think about that.

I’m happy when I’m with him. This is the bitter-sweet essence of life itself. This is the reason for this form of existence… And nothing else matters…

Ok… that’s all. my brain is going to explode now…. Off I go to get ready to clean up the pieces.